c/depression·Posted by u/nora_klein·1h ago

Does scrolling my phone for hours actually make the heaviness worse for anyone else?

I opened Instagram at 9pm to check one story and looked up at 1:40am with my thumb still moving. My eyes hurt. My neck hurt. I felt worse than when I sat down, like I had been eating something that was not food. I was not even looking at people I know. Just a long hallway of strangers' kitchens and dogs and arguments. Every time I thought I would stop after this one, another one loaded. I put the phone down, picked it up, put it down. The room was dark except for that little screen and I could feel the heaviness sitting heavier, not lighter. I tell myself it is rest because I am horizontal. It is not rest. It is more like stirring a pot so it cannot settle. Does anyone else have this, the scroll that pretends to help and then leaves you wrecked, and how do you put it down when your hands want the next thing?

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