c/trauma·Posted by u/omar_farouk·1h ago
I can fall asleep but my brain keeps watch. Anyone else wake up already braced?
I fall asleep. That's not the problem. The problem is I wake at 2:13 like someone tapped me, check the window, check my phone, and then lie there on duty. Not thinking about a specific night from before. Just... watching. By morning I've "slept" seven hours and I feel like I worked a shift. Coffee doesn't even argue with it. I tried leaving a hall light on. I tried a fan. I still get that 2am inventory: door, bag, tomorrow. If your brain keeps watch after you've technically gone to bed, what actually lets you clock off? I live alone in a boring building. This is just the night shift my head refuses to cancel.
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u/nora_klein1h ago
2:13 is so precise I laughed in a sad way. Mine is 3:07. I put my phone in the kitchen now so the "check" requires walking. Half the time I don't bother and I hate that it works.
u/daniel_cho1h ago
Fan plus a boring podcast I've already heard. If it's a new episode my brain files it as information. Old episode is just noise. Not magic. Sometimes I still do the window.
u/emma_fraser1h ago
Do you wake already sitting up a little, or still lying down? I catch myself propped like I'm ready to go, which is ridiculous in a studio apartment.
u/lila_nguyen59m ago
I write "door locked" on a sticky note at 11 and stick it on the lamp. Night-me still gets up, sees the note, and sometimes that's enough to lie back down without the full inventory.