c/depression·Posted by u/daniel_cho·17h ago

Why do I feel worse after a productive morning of checking boxes that do not matter?

I cleared twelve tiny tasks before lunch. Emails. A form. I even wiped the stove. On paper it looks like a person who has their life. At 1:15 I sat on the kitchen floor with a yogurt and felt worse than when I woke up. None of the boxes were the things I actually care about. They were just the things that yell. The actual thing, a doctor callback I have been dodging, is still a missed call on my phone from Monday. I used the busy feeling as a disguise. Then the disguise came off at lunch and I felt tricked by myself. Anyone else have mornings that look fine from the outside and land like a crash?

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