c/depression·Posted by u/maya_patel·1h ago
Why do I feel so guilty for lying on the couch when I know I need the rest?
I lay on the couch from 2 to 6 yesterday watching an episode of a show I already finished. The whole time I kept a running list of the emails I was not sending. My laptop was on the coffee table with the little camera light off, which somehow felt like it was watching me anyway. I was tired. I know I was tired. Rest still felt like I was getting away with something. My roommate came through, saw me, said nice rest day, and I laughed like I had chosen it. I had not chosen it. I had stalled there. Then I got up at 6, made toast, and stood at the counter feeling behind on a Sunday that did not even have a job attached. How do you actually lie down without turning it into a trial in your own head?
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u/sam_whitaker1h ago
I set a 40-minute timer and call it a nap, not a failure. When the timer ends I can stay or get up. The name change is dumb and it helps.
u/nora_klein1h ago
The camera light thing. I tape a sticky note over the laptop eye even when it is off. Out of sight, less judged, which I know is my own brain doing that.
u/theo_ramirez59m ago
Are the emails actually urgent, or do they just feel that way because you are horizontal? Mine are almost never urgent. I still write the list.