How do I stop checking if they viewed my story after a normal Tuesday?

I posted a photo of my coffee. That is all. A mug, the window, nothing deep. Then I opened the viewers list four times between 1pm and 3pm looking for his name. He was in meetings. I know he was in meetings. When his name was not there by 4 I felt that old leftover feeling, like I had sent a flare and the sky stayed dark. He texted at 5:10 about what we were doing for dinner, totally normal. I still felt behind, like I had already lost a game he was not playing. I deleted the story so I would stop checking it. Then I checked whether he had seen it before I deleted it. This is not who I want to be on a Tuesday. How do you not turn a mug into a test?

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u/priya_nair 7h ago
I turned off the viewers list in settings. I still wonder. I just cannot get the little row of faces as evidence.
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u/chris_moretti 7h ago
Same with read receipts. I posted a story and then watched his name like it was a court date. Dinner text did not even fix it for an hour.
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u/omar_farouk 6h ago
Do you check more after a slightly off morning with him, or even after a fine day?
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u/emma_fraser 6h ago
I tell one friend 'I am about to check the list' and she says don't. Half the time I still check. Half the time the text stops me.
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